His name starts with a H. So does happiness. Heartbreak. Home. Hoops. All things I associate with him.

Ever since my family moved in across the street when we were both kids, Holden Adams has been that guy. My first crush. My former confidante. My best friend’s brother. He’s the highest of highs and the lowest of lows.

I love him.

I hate him.

One of those is a lie.

I’m just…not sure which.